lil (honest) life update!! TW – mentions of depression/anxiety

hi friends i hope you’re all doing good!Β 

i’ve unfortunately not had a great month so far… i’ve been super burnt out and also started the month off with a nice bout of ✨ π’Ήπ‘’π“…π“‡π‘’π“ˆπ“ˆπ’Ύπ‘œπ“ƒ ✨ which i do deal with from time to time and seems to come out of no where. this time i think i was just so overwhelmed with work and life that my body was just like ~nope~ and decided to shut down completely, which made it impossible to create and do the things that made me feel happy. and honestly i didn’t feel like doing anything at all, i just wanted to lie in bed and wallow in emptiness, but luckily i had my partner to help me feel a bit better and i was able to do the bare minimum. every day that passed i just felt worse and worse because my work kept piling up and making me more anxious. which is honestly why i haven’t posted on here at all since may 1st… i think april really took it out of me, with the launch of my patreon and doing a massive shop update (which was super successful and thank you to those who placed an order i appreciate it so much) and it’s almost like i was riding such a high from all the positive emotions from that and then suddenly i just felt like ..what do i do now..
i do tend to get this quite after most shop updates and i’m trying to figure out how i can break this cycle, if there is a way.
being burnt out from making art is really difficult when part of your livelyhood relies on you being creative, and it’s something i’ve struggled with since i started all of this, and something i will continue to work on!! i wish there was a magic wand i could wave to stop that cycle but alas, there isn’t one.

i would love to know what things you do to bring yourself back when you feel burnt out?Β 

anyway, i am starting to feel a lot better than i did and trying to put a lot less pressure on myself which will hopefully in turn, make the creativity flow more naturally!

some positive news; i’m getting married in just under 2 months!!!! i wanted to share this with you guys as we are keeping it on the dl at the moment but yes i will be getting married to my partner at the end of july and i cannot wait! it’s going to be a super small wedding with just close family, and after we are heading off to bruges, belgium for a bit! i’m so excited and i will share more as we get closer to the day πŸ˜€Β 

let me know how you’re doing in the comments, i’d love to know what you’ve been up to during may and i hope you have a fantastic rest of your week!!

emma xx

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